My dearest is coming home in three days! Actually can't wait to see him na. Kaya lang medyo nagtampo yata sa akin. Haaay...nahihiya kasi ako sa sister niya eh. Don't really know how to act when she's there though we haven't been introduced yet. Actually 'yun din problema dun... we're not yet properly introduced. Not that it's a requirement...it's just that I'm somewhat uncomfortable...what if bigla siyang bumaba and finds me there? what will I tell her? These and a lot more...
However, I made my decision, punta na rin ako...ilang araw lang kasi kami magkakasama eh...yoko na palampasin pa. Bahala na. The important thing is, makakasama ko na siya uli...kahit ilang araw lang. I so missed my baby na kasi...sobra.
Monday, August 27, 2007
Of Passwords and Usernames
I've opened my pc with the intention of creating a new post since I'm relatively bored right now again because of the numerous holidays which of course kept me from doing what I like best, WORKING!
However, it took me like, ten years before actually be able to type something. WHY? Because of these freaking passwords and usernames! I happen to have one username and password for all my sites and emails except for this blogsite because of the "availability" thingy. Because of the wasted time, I already forgot what I'm supposed to write about. and so now I end up staring at my monitor and my head going off blank again! Ah! Pathetic!
However, it took me like, ten years before actually be able to type something. WHY? Because of these freaking passwords and usernames! I happen to have one username and password for all my sites and emails except for this blogsite because of the "availability" thingy. Because of the wasted time, I already forgot what I'm supposed to write about. and so now I end up staring at my monitor and my head going off blank again! Ah! Pathetic!
Saturday, August 18, 2007
DREAMing of forever
"Even gays have the right to dream about forever." - Boy Abunda
And just like any human relationship, being faithful and true to the one you commit to is and will always be a challenge. It's not that, "hindi na uso ang faithfulness..." but more of, less and less people hold on to promises of commitment or they don't even promise anything at all. Relationships have reached a point of, pardon the term, mediocrity. It has always been human nature to seek something / someone else other than what they already have in order to satisfy the craving for excitement or to break from the monotony of a steady, "stable" relationship.
"Temptations" shouldn't always take the blame for broken relationships because they have always been there. What should be taken into account is the inherent human weakness to even allow one self to be tempted by something short-lived and trivial.
Should unfaithfulness be forgiven and accepted as a part of every relationship? Forgiveness is a virtue. And its hypocrisy if you will ever forget that person who loved you... made you fell the most intense emotion of being loved and cared for but at the same time, gave you the worst pain of a broken heart.
"Allowing ourselves to think that no relationship will last will only create a subliminal acceptance that relations are not worth nurturing at all."
And just like any human relationship, being faithful and true to the one you commit to is and will always be a challenge. It's not that, "hindi na uso ang faithfulness..." but more of, less and less people hold on to promises of commitment or they don't even promise anything at all. Relationships have reached a point of, pardon the term, mediocrity. It has always been human nature to seek something / someone else other than what they already have in order to satisfy the craving for excitement or to break from the monotony of a steady, "stable" relationship.
"Temptations" shouldn't always take the blame for broken relationships because they have always been there. What should be taken into account is the inherent human weakness to even allow one self to be tempted by something short-lived and trivial.
Should unfaithfulness be forgiven and accepted as a part of every relationship? Forgiveness is a virtue. And its hypocrisy if you will ever forget that person who loved you... made you fell the most intense emotion of being loved and cared for but at the same time, gave you the worst pain of a broken heart.
"Allowing ourselves to think that no relationship will last will only create a subliminal acceptance that relations are not worth nurturing at all."
Of Love and Relationships
For the longest time that I've been single I'm used to going out all by myself. I enjoy watching movies alone, sitting in a coffee shop reading a book since I don't have anyone to talk to; or simply taking my time to finish a meal since I don't have any other plans after. I loved the freedom...of not minding anyone or anybody. I simply didn't care. But things do change... They did. BIG TIME.
Two years have passed and here I am, alone..again. Not because I am single still, but because the only person whom I've learned to share dinners,movies, books, cups of hot chocolates...my life, has been assigned somewhere else. All of a sudden I'm thrown back to memory lane... Unfortunately, this time, I don't find the "freedom" enjoyable anymore. Something I loved doing before seemed nauseating now. Simply because this time, being alone makes me feel incomplete. Because in every corner, every cinema, every coffee table, I keep on looking for that person who always held my hand while watching movies...who always stares at me from across the table during dinner... who always beckons me with such gentleness... who makes me feel complete.
Suddenly, my mind is wandering blankly in search in search on someone...
Hope springs eternal. My love will be back... soon... and we'll hold hands again like we used to. And then I'll never be alone anymore.
Friday, August 17, 2007
Is it You?
All this time I’ve been walking all alone…
Tired… sad… living an unfulfilled life.
As if I’m in a vast desert.
Step after step, my feet struggles through the sand.
Never knew where I’ve been…
And too late to know where I’m going.
Until you came…
From the sand dunes you stood like an olive…
My oasis…
Is it you, my dream fufilled?
Hold me.
Teach me the ways of the shifting sand.
And shield from your storms
that I may find my way home.
Hold me…
Don’t ever let me go.
Tired… sad… living an unfulfilled life.
As if I’m in a vast desert.
Step after step, my feet struggles through the sand.
Never knew where I’ve been…
And too late to know where I’m going.
Until you came…
From the sand dunes you stood like an olive…
My oasis…
Is it you, my dream fufilled?
Hold me.
Teach me the ways of the shifting sand.
And shield from your storms
that I may find my way home.
Hold me…
Don’t ever let me go.
Yearbook Entry
This was made by my baby for my yearbook entry last April 2007... been blown by it... even made my cry.
In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life.
In the course of our lives, we come to a point where we feel inconsolable and alone. We struggle against intangible demons, to grapple for sanity amidst the chaos in our existence. It is such rarity that someone can pull another off the claws of this hell unscathed. But even short of a miracle to make this person feel wanted and cared for. A miracle... a dream come true… these are what this singularly selfless person personified for me. A gifted and motivated soul; one can see in his eyes the fire to accomplish beyond what is expected of him. Indeed, accomplish and succeed he has done in his life. Mau is a friend, confidante, brother, and teacher to many. They love him with unquestioning fervor because they know he will fight their wars with them, if not for them. Fearless and strong-minded, he is never afraid to articulate whatever his thoughts are. Mau has a strong groundwork for his ideologies which will be instrumental to his success in all his forthcoming endeavors. All those who love him have nothing but praises and pride in all his current and future triumphs that we are so sure he will achieve.
Aristotle said it best… love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies. I’m so fortunate to have my soul completed by one such as Mau.
In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life.
In the course of our lives, we come to a point where we feel inconsolable and alone. We struggle against intangible demons, to grapple for sanity amidst the chaos in our existence. It is such rarity that someone can pull another off the claws of this hell unscathed. But even short of a miracle to make this person feel wanted and cared for. A miracle... a dream come true… these are what this singularly selfless person personified for me. A gifted and motivated soul; one can see in his eyes the fire to accomplish beyond what is expected of him. Indeed, accomplish and succeed he has done in his life. Mau is a friend, confidante, brother, and teacher to many. They love him with unquestioning fervor because they know he will fight their wars with them, if not for them. Fearless and strong-minded, he is never afraid to articulate whatever his thoughts are. Mau has a strong groundwork for his ideologies which will be instrumental to his success in all his forthcoming endeavors. All those who love him have nothing but praises and pride in all his current and future triumphs that we are so sure he will achieve.
Aristotle said it best… love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies. I’m so fortunate to have my soul completed by one such as Mau.
Can't Think of Any
Its been three days already since classes were suspended because of the typhoon, or more accurately, because of heavy rains caused by the typhoon on the southwest monsoon. Instead of going to school and working on my LP's and first quarter grades, not to mention checking quizzes and reading the various notes my students have scribbled on their quiz notebooks, I'm stuck here in front of my PC trying to think clearly... I'm trying to make my LP for next week but I seem to not know where and how to start!
I'm having a hard time putting myself in "working mode" especially when I realize that a warm and comfy bed is waiting for me upstairs...beckoning me to get under the sheets and start dreaming!!! Or when i catch a glimpse of the my brother playing ps2 or the food on the fridge!
That's why I'd rather go to school even on Saturdays just to do "teacher work" because I find the faculty room conducive to working. All of a sudden I miss my carrel...
Now, my mind goes off blank.
I'm having a hard time putting myself in "working mode" especially when I realize that a warm and comfy bed is waiting for me upstairs...beckoning me to get under the sheets and start dreaming!!! Or when i catch a glimpse of the my brother playing ps2 or the food on the fridge!
That's why I'd rather go to school even on Saturdays just to do "teacher work" because I find the faculty room conducive to working. All of a sudden I miss my carrel...
Now, my mind goes off blank.
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